Positively Negative ♥

How to say this.... I fancy someone, such a posh word to use. Yeah... well saying 'fancy' is much more easier than saying 'like' don't you agree with that?

I mean fancy has so much pretentious in it, so when you said it now a days, it doesn't seems as such a serious feelings. 

By the by, I am positive that his feeling is negative. 

If you read my last post, which is goddamn long and I hope you don't just waste your half an hour of your life on that, you pretty much know who is the guy, how my feelings are and how confuse I am now. It's not as if everything has clear up now, NO!

I feel like updating everything about him into my blog, everyday, but that is just simply spammin isn't it? I mean it is my blog but I don't really want to spam my readers through fruitless love. Yeah well... 

Today.... when we were out for dinner (usual, school) he was there after a soccer match. So I was in the IB lounge, and Melina was there too. He came in and sat down at Melina's table ( I am not jealous). Cut to the important part, when Melina was about to go home, she turn to face me and said bye. Obliviously you would turn and said bye too, and he was right behind Melina. If someone in front of you said bye to a person, you will also said bye or some kind of like that. Yeah he did, but he said it with a face that he was forced to do it. Did I imagine that, no, cause I am so sure I didn't see a smile in his face. That probably is stupid reason but I am 100% sure he is not the type of person who said bye with a troubled face to someone else. He is the cheery cheery guy remember?! 

That kind of struck me hard. It's been bothering me the whole night and yeah of course it brought my mood down. I tried to distract myself with work but pointless, I can't concentrate on my IA and nor can I distract my mind by studying because my brain is just peripheral. GODDAMMIT!! 

Well that reaction of his actually what made my conclusion, I just misinterpreted signals. Gosh, boys don't lead girls ashtray. It hurts like sht.... 

And here is me, just being me.

Love,

Hanabi ♥